and I wonder why MAKAR can’t make any money

in case you were wondering why MAKAR can’t make any money

just check out the percentage of a cent we make on one stream

and iwonder cdbaby

$.0015 of a cent

isn’t that an infinitesimal number? Or as Wikipedia says —

Infinitesimals have been used to express the idea of things so small that there is no way to see them or to measure them.”

Or as Mark says when I asked him what $.0015 of a cent is —

“Not even worth the breath it takes to mention it.”

Exactly.

I actually made more money on poem this year than we did on MAKAR. A poem! The least commercial venture there is.

I got paid $25 for a poem for Poetry is Dead.

We made almost $9 on MAKAR this year. Yeah, we’re in the big leagues. I hate my day job but thank god, I have one.

Posted in Music | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

My day job is making me sick

I can no longer deny it.

My day job as an assistant is making me physically ill.

This is what no one will tell you about being in an indie rock band, being an artist really, that you will most likely have to work a job to pay the bills and that’s fine except when you work for crazy people. People who are furious you have any kind of life or aspirations outside of work (which everyone does, even those not trying to make it as a band or a writer). And even if you do a great job. Because I’m the best assistant my bosses have ever had. They’ve told me. But doing a great job isn’t enough because sometimes when you’re hired as an assistant, what they really want is a servant or even a slave.

Sorry to get all dramatic but I’m reaching the end of my tolerance of working for The Man. This past year, I’ve suffered from quite a few stress-related illnesses. The latest being iritis in my left eye. I have never gotten this before.

left eye

And last May I contracted a horrible cankersore-like outbreak that made it painful and pretty impossible to eat. See how it looked like burns on my tongue?

mouthI was informed that this is something children usually get. Of course, my dad was convinced it was trench mouth.

I have a horrible time sleeping on Sundays and yes, I’ve always had bad bouts with insomnia but this has become a constant thing recently. So bad that a couple times a week I have to take Lorazepam at night to quell my anxieties.

My day job as an assistant is very stressful. I say to people it’s akin to being an air traffic controller or at least the people I work for. I work for one crazy person in particular which I have dubbed The Granola Dictator.

Where do I even start with this insane person. She’s an inch or two shorter than me (and I’m five feet nothing) and she’s a tyrant. She’s emotionally disturbed. Her husband is a working musician and is often away on tours. He also is an alumni of Oberlin as I am so whenever he’s away or not doing what she’s asked him to do (because she’s the breadwinner and he’ll play 5 nights a week at restaurants unless she reigns him in) she takes it out me. I’m her proxy punching bag.

I mean it’s all so laughable or at least I thought it was.

The Granola Dictator will mark up every page with a barrage of light pencil squiggles of 100 page leases and demand that I and only I enter in all her changes anyway from 6-8 hours of work if I’m uninterrupted and I work for 3 other people so I’m never uninterrupted. We have a word processing department that’s supposed to do this kind of work but only recently has she let me use them with the insistence of HR. But then she asked “Is it all completely correct?” and tried to make me proofread the entire thing even the legal language, yelling at me that a word that wasn’t written in the sentence she wrote was missing. She basically wants me to do her job because she’s miserable but 99.9% of lawyers I know are.

I finally won this battle and rarely do these jobs for her, But yesterday she wouldn’t let me send an involved copying and collating job to the Copy Center because she didn’t want to charge the client for it so she wasted my whole afternoon when I had other work I needed to get done. But I didn’t finish her job because our communal copy machines don’t have the high capacity that was needed and my ridiculous job was constantly being interrupted by other people. I just left her railing at the poor Copy Center and went home.

THIS IS SO NOT PUNK ROCK.

This is all very boring. I know! I don’t want to be talking about this but she is the most miserable person on earth and she’s making me physically ill. She stomps around with her sour earth woman face, angry that she has no real power. She can’t make me stay late. I’m not required to do overtime (thank god) but that doesn’t mean she doesn’t apply the pressure on me every week. She never asks, she asks the other assistants who want the overtime money but she’s never asked me, she just says I need you to stay. Well FUCK YOU. I’m not staying. The only time I did was for our company holiday party. I was sick with a horrible cold/cough two days before but I came in so I could attend the holiday party with Mark.

But The Granola Dictator cancelled those plans of mine. She saved up another crazy document that she had two days to give to Word-Processing but instead left it for me, saying, “Someone is going to have to miss the Christmas party.”

And I couldn’t let anyone else miss it. So I stayed an hour or two with Mark helping me to finish this project. But by the time I finished at 8 pm, I was so sick and had to go home. And when I submitted my overtime and Mark’s, she hit the roof saying she didn’t approve of two people working on this. But it was the same amount of money we just got it done faster.

And she went to the Christmas party.

Whenever I’m out, sick or vacation day or when the whole city is shut down due to a snow day, she punishes me. She sent me all these documents to print when the office was closed due to snow and was furious I hadn’t printed them at home.

Another battle I have won is that she wanted me to have a blackberry and be accessible to her and her inane insane emails at home. She tried to bribe me with giving me an old Mac of hers.

I said, “Why do I need to have access at home?”

“So I can reach you.”

“What, like on my vacation?”

“No, you get your vacation unlike me.”

“On my sick days? Because when I call out sick, I’m pretty sick.”

“No on snow days.”

“The office is closed on snow days and if I’m on Citrix, Id’ have to do work for the whole firm.”

“Well I work for the whole firm.”

Yeah and I thought what I always think, and that’s why you make the big bucks. Suck it up!

But I said nothing.

So she added, “It’s not mandatory, just think about it. You could have a blackberry and a Mac.”

I said I’d think about it just to appease and stall her volcanic fury but an hour later I said I thought about it and I’d pass.

That was the last time she demanded I have off-site access but she had tried a dozen times to manipulate me into it.

She’s also tried to groom me to be a partially a paralegal which is the second worse job on the planet next to a lawyer. You have some status, really the status of a slug but at least you think you have status but they own you. There is no protection, no “I can’t work late” because you’re one of them and therefore your personal life does not matter.

When I said I had no interest in being a paralegal or part paralegal, she said, “You know this [meaning being an assistant] is not a career.”

I just laughed and said, “Yeah I know.”

That was highly offensive but I found it amusing. Wow, you think you’re really going to sway me by dangling the carrot of a crappy corporate slug status of a paralegal when we wrote a song called “I Hate My Job”?

Posted in Music, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments