We haven’t rocked and roll for a long time (I think it’s been over a year) but we’re playing a gig tonight!
At the Pyramid Club! That “iconic 1980s bar” as Google calls it.
I’m excited but also nervous but Mark said this morning that I love the fear. Or as he elaborated in his enviable Markanese matter –
“You LOVE fear. Both of us do. It’s like a roller coaster ride. You want that feeling of exhilaration. To know that you faced your fears and lived to tell the tale, but that you also felt that tingling through your entire body that says…I’M ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause nothing says your alive quite like the feeling of fear. No sleeping when you feel fear. So get ready to feel the fear tonight honey. But remember, I’ll be right by your side supporting you all the way and riding that wave myself. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And know that I love you and want the best for you. You can always rely on me to support you and don’t worry about errors, we’re both going to make them, just have fun tonight, be your funny charming self and know that I will always catch you when you fall.”
And that made me feel better.
I just get nervous because really (though no one ever believes me who knows me now) – I’m a shy person.
But at middle school graduation my English teacher Ronna Storm said I should speak. (Anyone at Gill St. Bernard’s could speak at their middle school or their high school graduation, it was open which was nice). She said otherwise I’d always be afraid of speaking in public if I didn’t do it. And I knew she was right, if I didn’t then, I would be so much more afraid to do it later. I don’t remember what I read, perhaps it was a poem and it was terrifying. I don’t know if it gets easier the more I perform or do interviews but it certainly becomes more possible.
And maybe I do truly confuse nerves for excitement?
People should never expect live to be perfect because that’s not what a live performance is about. If you want perfect, listen to the recording but if you want real, go to a live concert. Hopefully ours?!
The details —
The Pyramid Club is located at 101 Avenue A (between 6th and 7th streets)
Take the F to 2nd Avenue and East Houston
Take the L to 1st Avenue 14th Street
Back in the day, everybody from Nirvana to Red Hot Chili Peppers to Patti Smith played the Pyramid Club and now L4 Black Door bringing live music back to this historic club.
We’ll be playing our newest single, Love and Confusion, off our upcoming third album, Fancy Hercules, coming out soon!
Hope to see you there!